"Give him to me." I said. My Man gave me a mildly startled look but obediently handed over the prisoner.
Frodo Baggins' child sized body lay tense in my arms cloak wrapped tightly, defensively, around him. I spoke quietly so as not to be overheard by the Men before and behind us on the steep path.
"Forgive me, Frodo, it was cruel of me to frighten you so, but I was angry that you should try to keep a matter of such moment from me."
"What else could I do? I knew you'd stop me if you could." he answered, voice slightly muffled by his blindfold.
"Can you blame me, Frodo? It's madness to take the Ring into Mordor within very Sauron's grasp. You can't possibly succeed."
"I know!" he cried despairingly. "But I must try, I am bound by the command of the Council."
"And you say Boromir agreed to this?" That I found difficult to believe.
"Yes. He spoke against it, knowing the dangers as he did, but he accepted the decision of the Council and swore to see it done. Elrond Half-Elven said it was our only hope and Gandalf - Mithrandir - agreed with him."
Elrond is a name out of legend, sung in old tales and written in ancient parchments, but Mithrandir I have known since I was a boy. Him I trust whatever my father may say. If *he* thought this was the only way then perhaps it is.
Yet surely he never intended to send two little Halflings alone into Mordor guided by a creature whose mind is as twisted as his body. Surely he'd meant to be with them, to guide them, and with him gone...I could feel the Halfling shaking as he fought back tears. "Mithrandir was dear to you."
"I've known him all my life." he choked in answer.
"I too." I said quietly.
"It was my fault!" He burst out suddenly. "I decided to go through Moria. But we couldn't pass over the mountains and Gimli thought there would be Dwarves there to help us - and I didn't know, Gandalf didn't warn me!"
"Frodo, if Mithrandir gave the decision to you he must have believed you'd make the right one. If he didn't warn you perhaps it was because there were no better choices." We reached level ground and I put the Halfling on his feet guiding him with a hand on his shoulder.
"Boromir told me I had burdens enough without carrying Gandalf's death as well." he said.
Yes, that sounded like something my brother would say.
"He saved my life at least twice, and after Gandalf fell he tried to comfort me. Truly, Faramir, I was his friend - and he mine."
"But something went wrong between you before you parted." I said, knowing it was true.
"Yes...those last days there was much disagreement in the company, much debate about our best road. Boromir wanted to go to Minas Tirith to rest and resupply ourselves before trying to enter Mordor through the Morgul Vale."
I shuddered. Boromir would have had to have been mad to think such a plan could work.
"But Aragorn was against it, he wanted to enter from the north through Emyn Muil and the Dead Marshes to the Black Gate."
So Isildur's Heir hadn't wanted to come to the White City of his fathers. Perhaps he had feared the divisions he might cause. I began to think the better of him. "And which course did you favor, Frodo?"
"I - I wasn't sure. I was afraid of making the wrong choice as I had in Moria."
"So you and my brother quarreled."
"Yes."
No. He was lying again, or rather holding something back. "And in the end you decided to leave your companions and strike out alone with just your gardener to aid you."
"It seemed the best thing to do. The others were Princes and Lords in their own countries, they would be needed at home. I didn't want to waste any more lives."
"With this Gollum as your guide?"
Very quietly. "I trust him."
"Frodo, he is mad surely you realize that?"
In the same quiet voice. "The Ring has ruined him. It is ruining me. It will destroy us all if we do not destroy it first."
I could feel his pain, his desperation. "Frodo, you cannot destroy it. You, and your Sam, and Gollum too would die in the attempt and the Ring would fall into Sauron's hands. You must see I cannot permit that to happen!" I stopped him, bent to remove the blindfold. "The Ring will be safe in Minas Tirith, and it will save Gondor."
Those wide blue eyes, uncovered, stared up into mine. "How can you believe that? You've felt the Ring's power, its malice!"
Yes, I had felt it like a maddening fever in the blood urging me to thrust my sword into the Halfling's heart and take the Ring for my own. But I had mastered it - the temptation could be resisted. Yet the knowledge that we held the Ring, even lying unused in our deepest vault, would give Sauron pause make him draw back his hand for fear of provoking a terrible retaliation.
"When all the choices are bad one can only choose the one that holds the least peril." I answered. "And I have done so."
Haven't I?
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