|   Maglor, cursed wanderer, sings of his loss of the Silmaril. In blank verse unrhymed.
 
 
 O undiminished Light! Thou first of Trees divine
 by twin empyreal fruits did birth, and forth
 By mighty craft distilled: their strands entwined
 In mingled dawn. Silmarils your final form--
 in hold impregnable, in shape and grace
 so infinite did reside thy Light
 Unfading. Light that wondrous love bestirred
 In all who saw your cool unbroken sphere
 whose substance pure did radiate within.
 Though peerless the twin Trees of Valinor:
 yet still unequaled shone their colors twain
 in twilight joined. Their living hues did dance
 a mutual flame; as vibrant strings their Light
 did harp the heart, and set the very soul
 in sundering song. By noble Fëanor’s hands
 enjewelled and joined, as woven filaments
 of threaded glass, and set in Silmarils
 thy lucent wingéd Light that outshone all
 other lamps and jewel. How paled the crafts
 of lesser hands, before thy holiest Light!
 Yet lost, yet lost! that lost I the Silmaril!How moved thy Light, and how in poverty
 of thy radiance my sight seems blind'd and vain.
 For Light I lost has lost me all of light;
 my eyes are orbs confined that harken not,
 they bathe in the dawn yet pay no heed the morn
 for levity false and joy offensive seem
 before their robbéd memory.
 And here
 I dwell, a houseless ghost: Of Sun and Moon
 unfeeling, save their baleful cold. For what
 is the Sun but a tainted shield, that daily dash
 twixt ruddy courses, wearing burnished light
 that shines as true Light marred and stained.
 For same of the too inconstant Moon;
 the Moon by whom unhappy mortal Men
 do count their changes. Light of his but wax
 and wane, and hold not the endless, flawless Light's
 perpetual majesty.
 I wander i' vain,
 in hopes of thee; perfection of thine
 revisit yet. But having fallen thus,
 the most in misery is mine, having gain'd
 and lost our foremost holy Jewels and joy
 immeasurable in earthly estimate.
 What woes have hunted since the seven sonsof Fëanor! Ai! no prouder people since
 has dwelt in yonder Valinor, Aman
 no better sons. 'Tis true enough, that blood
 our paths did stain, and treachery, and death,
 yet think of us not faithless! For what faith
 would come of breaking Oath paternal?
 Constant most of all must oaths of sons
 and brothers hold. So thereby we did take
 the ships, and bloodied hands did steer their masts,
 and angry minds their course; in wrathful flame
 the swans were swallowed. Bad blood multiplied.
 And few love we had for doubters e'er
 of our thought and councils, who were slow
 to action yet quick to words when we
 were thus beset.
 Yet once had we set foot
 in cold and wildered Arda did not my heart
 misgive, and looked I behind our ranks, where West
 the wind came flying not, and Stars were veiled
 in mourning or wrath. And long I sang
 in that hour, to darkling Seas, of deed and glory!
 yet ere I ended, slowly themes and chords
 of grief and blood, our cruelty cold, and fears
 unending, did twine and weave among
 my words.
                     We warred for long in wrathbut were unwinning; splendid though we were!
 a hill of frost our swords had seemed, and flame
 their bites did temper. Shields of ours had gleamed
 and held, as adamantine as resolve.
 Yet all for naught! Before the hated gates
 of the Enemy our father fell like a failing flame
 in the ashes. Ai, vaunting Fate, unhappy Fate
 who sent us thus against the reign and will
 of the Valar; drawn into War unceasing long
 and woes uncountable!
 Brothers! Whereto
 your allied spirits wander, i' pain or peace?
 within a fiery depth has Maedhros gone,
 and borne in him was one of the Jewels of art
 incomparable: I felt it thus. For flame
 had singed my thoughts, and yonder shone a Light
 before my mind, exceeding bright among
 a frond of stars. Into the earth's depths it
 did plummet, now as in fire, and now as in hail.
 What madness drove us? Torment eternal
 my fate has won me: to roam disgraced the strands,
 repentant, shamed, yet unreleased of Oath;
 for ever burns my heart its dooméd words.
 And so I do, and so I look: to Westas I had done before. Reprieve I've none
 but memories of thy Light. How I have dreamt
 of thee undimmed and blazing o'er the Sea
 in streaks of gold and silver. Hark! thy Light
 the very thieving waves do praiséd sing,
 and caught twixt Sun and Moon do I perceive
 the last of Three: at height unmoutable
 above the livid waves in wrath of me.
 Its Light caress's my eyes, yet faint its beams:
 reduce by distance thus, across so wide
 a space as 'tween the empyrean vault
 where tremble the Stars of Varda, queen supreme,
 and the earth so lowly 'neath. O chance, or fate,
 or strength of will—wherefore that he, in blood
 and kindred mixed, succeeds where mighty arms
 have failed? For the children of noble Finwë
 are scattered, and the sons of Fëanor dead.
 O holy Light, be moved to pity me,
 I stand on brink of the changed world still,
 with muted tongue I sing, yet words I've naught
 to mourn or praise your most beloved Light.
 
 
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 Note:       
 What hubris is this! While rereading The Silmarillion and Paradise Lost  in quick succession I was struck with the mirror between Milton's  Satanic host (and indeed, Shelly's Prometheus) and Tolkien's Noldor in Middle-Earth. That both stories are  movingly told (in part) from the point of view of the guilty seemed not  accidental. Anyway, there it is, for posterity's sake.
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